Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Love? What's love really mean?

It's not about just the word, love is more than a word to throw around. Love is a feeling. It's a feeling that awakens your soul, swallows you completely, and leaves you wanting more. It's something that takes a lot of work, and it doesn't just happen over night. It's breath taking and worth everything that life throws at you. It's a commitment to give your heart to someone and pray that they hold onto it and keep it safe. Love is giving all the power to someone to destroy all that you are, but having the confidence that they won't. Love is waiting on the person who you know you're meant to be with to turn around and realize you're standing there. That's what I feel for you and with you. I met my husband seven years ago at a firehouse when I used to go see his father. I remember him turning around the corner of that fire truck and I completely froze. He was tall, dark, and handsome, what more could a girl want? He had the perfect smile, the cutest laugh; however there was an issue. Everyone says that true love never waits, so even though he was seeing someone at that point in time I still had to be with him. Although him and I didn't last very long we were still the closest people you could ever meet, we talked to each other everyday, and made sure we atleast saw each other. We ended up falling out when I changed schools, but he had never left my mind. I lived in Germany for a year, and I ended up with a friend request from him and I used to hope and pray that he was thinking of me or atleast missing me. We started to talk off and on all through the year, then when I came home I remember how upset he got that I didn't text him the first day I got back, haha oh how I remember. We talked for some but we both became busy. I remember one day he asked if he could see me, oh how nervous I was. Here was the one person I knew I was meant to be with and I haven't seen him in years. What if I wasn't what he was thinking i'd be? I went and met up with him one night that he was working, and as soon as I saw him I knew. Everything I had ever felt about him came back and it was a rush. I remember our first kiss again, it was at the same place as our first kiss the first time it ever happened. That's when I knew it was real. I can't tell you our relationship is or even was easy, but we know it's worth it. I love my husband more than words could even begin to describe, and that love grows more and more everyday. I married him on my favorite holiday, Halloween. We had our beautiful son of almost 3 months on November 19th, 2010. He is the spitting image of both of us and he is the greatest thing that has ever happened to either one of us. He made our love grow stonger, purer, and we gained more understanding. My husband is my hero, my life, my dream, my puzzle piece, and my best friend. My whole entire world is in his hands, and I know that nothing will ever change the way I feel. I love you Darren Keith Hemp. We're what true love really means. :)